BFR

Berkeley Fiction Review Issue 29 is now available and it looks awesome! This will be the last issue of the BFR I work on. :(

"I'm Sorry I'm Insane and Weird and Utterly Immature and That the Word Utter Makes Me Giggle" available

Now available in Breath and Shadow. Click the link in the right corner under poems.

Come Visit Me in the Psych Ward now online

"Come Visit Me in the Psych Ward" is now up on Clockwise Cat, you can follow my link for it under my poems sidebar.

I unknowingly published a poem!

So I was googling myself today to see what prospective employers might dig up, since I am graduating in a week (woo-hoo!) and will thus have to resign myself to real work.

Anyway, I found that Berkeley Poetry Review published my poem Pumpkin. I think it's sort of odd that they didn't tell me about it, but whatevs, it's cool. That's my 6th poem to be published. :)

Hanging

I look over at him at his computer doing whatever he does on it. He’s sitting in a t-shirt and boxers and it is almost like it is any other day. As if he will be there forever, as if my life isn’t hanging on a string. I feel sick, like I am on the top of a very high building looking down, wondering if he is going to push me off.

Caged Girl

I am living in a box. I look around and see students dutifully studying, but I'm not like them. If I'm on the right path, why does it feel so wrong? I want to drive away, anywhere, wherever, just taking random routes, singing along to Bonnie Raitt and Meredith Brooks. I want to roll in a field of wheat and paint the university red. I want to peel back the walls and look into the world beyond. I want to do somersaults. I want to chop my hair off. I want to grow butterfly wings and fly high high high and look down at how small everything really is. I don't want to go to school. I don't want to be successful in some white collar job and follow a routine and get up at 7am every morning and go to work. I want freedom. I have this craziness building up inside threatening to blow me up if I don't release it. I don't want to take more pills. I don't want to be pacified and stabilized. I can't be caged.